It's hard for me to explain, to put it in words. It's hard for me to tell what's exactly on my mind. It's really hard for me to find words to convince you. It's even harder when I'm alone in this fight.

I don't want this to break. I don't want the love to go scattered. I don't want this separation to last. Coz it's tormenting us. I don't want people to laugh at us. I don't want people to look down on us. I don't want to see them clapping their hands with a smile on their faces. I refused to let them watch us breaking up.

But I can't win this battle alone all the time. I know sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. I need you, i need us. Help me stop the pain. Help me stop the sorrow. Help me stop the tears. Please.... Help me...

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window

Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes ?til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway


(Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson)

Ntah lah... Tak tau cemane nak put in words... We became more and more loving each day. Walaupun pernah ada kisah HITAM, but it actually strengthen our love and faith. He never give up to prove his best to me, never tired to shower me every single day with his love and care, and he never loose faith in me even when i broke down into pieces. He catches me whenever i fall... Exactly the right type according to my needs. It's good he's changed now, promised not to repeat the same mistakes again, learnt from the wrongs and throw away what ever shit that drives him into it, even if he has to throw away his once closed+trusted fren as soon as he found out that the "fren" was involved with that PSYCHO+LUNATIC bitch's plan...

Kesan luka masih jelas, but he promised that IT wont happen again... Promised...

Life's been hard lately. But I manage to put myself at ease with the help of my loved ones.. Too much damage.. Internally and even externally. Some from my own and some from others.. But without all the shits, you cant call yourself that you're living a "life". These are all meant for learning.

Gosh! I went through HELL.. 1st test was my love life, followed by my family and now the people around me, especially the HYPOCRITES who dares to sit next to me [like I don't know you?? duh!!].

The WHORE and the HYPOCRITES are actually one hell of an entertainment. Do they know that they were laughed at each time they turn their backs?

As for my family, my principle is still the same. I'M NOT GOIN ANYWHERE.. The "elders", you guys have made your decisions and don't wait TOO LONG to change your mind before it's TOO LATE. He bruised enough and no more stupid dramas from the rest of you. You don't have to tell the WHOLE WORLD that you HATED HIM. You were only attacked once and you're cracking up like a small child?? At least you had someone to hold her back. When I was attacked for the 1st time, who's there to hold her for me?? NO ONE.. When you guys arrived, all of you manage to "laughed" at me and make fun out of the situation. But still, I NEVER MOVE NOT EVEN AN INCH from HIM. So, who's TOUGHER now?? You're not scared, aren't you?? You're waaaaayyyyy older than me and even wiser than me. So, think about it, peeps....

As written above, are those OBSTACLES as I virtue my life or they're PUNISHMENTS for my wrong doings? 'Til that bad?? I'm not sure.. Well, who am I to question all that?... I just have to go through it wisely and patiently.

Thank God I had my lifeline on my backs.. The TOP LINES, My Dad, Amir, Abg Yat and family.. My Closest Friend, Hirsha Erna, I can always count on u and vice versa okay... My Beloved Homies, Lieza, Nisa, Ezay... You guys are the only reason I'm still breathing and walking on this earth... Put a smile on my face, gave me good times of laughter, held me up whenever I fall, listens to my whines... Tell me how can I forget u guys?? All of you are THE BEST THINGS IN MY LIFE... *hugs n kisses*

Lots of LOVE!!...

May it be an evening star

Shines down upon you

May it be when darkness falls

Your heart will be true

You walk a lonely road

Oh, how far you are from home



Mornie utúlië (darkness has come)

Believe and you will find your way

Mornie alantië (darkness has fallen)

A promise lives within you now



May it be shadows call

Will fly away

May it be your journey on

To light the day

When the night is overcome

You may rise to find the sun



Mornie utúlië (darkness has come)

Believe and you will find your way

Mornie alantië (darkness has fallen)

A promise lives within you now





MAY IT BE - ENYA - ENIGMA
A promise lives within you now

Antara Si Hipokrit dan Si Jujur, agak2 yg mana satu u ols akan pilih??

Yang Si Jujur akan tegur mana2 yg buruk dan cuba bantu perbetulkannya. Manakala Si Hipokrit ni pulak akan hanya beritau apa yg "baik" atau "cantikk" sahaja sbb tak nak dibenci orang, bak kata lain yg lebih indah.... PROPA! Ini maknanya, dia takut utk jadi diri sendiri! Kesian kan manusia serupa ni... Cam x de kepercayaan terhadap diri sendiri gitu... Sbb x percaya diri sendiri lah dorg ni selalu "melepas"... Memang patut dikesian kan pon... Ngeeeee.....

Ni Yanie nk tanya pada para Hipokrit yg sedang membaca blog Yanie ni. Agak2 sampai bila yerk sifat tu akan berterusan? Hingga ke anak cucu??...

Ada sesetengah hipokrit yg tak ganggu org lain. Tapi ada juga yg SANGGUP ceroboh privacy org lain!! Semata-mata utk dpt kan kepentingan diri sendiri... Tak ke tu dah melampau??? Dah takde keje lain ke, cik kak oii... Jgn kata "cik kak" je... "cik ABG" pon sama naik jgk skrg. Yg si "cik ABG" tukang cover lain semasa "cik kak" ni tgh buat projek. Mmg sesuaiiii.... Korg dua org KAWEN lg baik le.. Sama BODO, sama EVIL. Dua2 pon sama HATI BUSUK. Dan skrg tgk lah apa da jadi pada life korg skrg?? HAPPY?? BAHAGIA??? SATISFIED??? Tak kann?? Mesti korg rasa penuh KESUNYIAN.. KESEORANGAN... Ye dakk?? Tu laaa.... Sapa suh kacau life org lain, kan diri sendiri yg sengsara.. Terkena plak "si mangsa" yg korg pekena kali ni "darah berdaulat"! Memang TAK DAPAT la kann???

Pada Yanie, keJUJURan itu penting dlm setiap perkara. Baik dalam percintaan hinggalah ke perkara2 yg kecil-kecilan. Tapi apa yg Yanie nampak hari ni, org dah tak lagi berminat pada sang JUJUR.. Silap haribulan, sifat itu akan pupus ditelan zaman kot?... Ntah lah... Tapi ini pesanan buat rakan2 kat luar sana, especially rakan2 PR. "Hipokrasi" ni memang femes dalam bidang kerja kita ni, JANGAN tersilap membuat apa jua pilihan. Yanie sendiri dah belajar dari pengalaman. Kiri kanan depan blkg kita dipenuhi dgn manusia yg berhati busuk. Hati2 dlm mengorak langkah...

But whatever it is, I'm glad that my life is GREAT now... REALLLYYY OK... syukran.. Alhamdulillah... syukur sgt2... Takkan Yanie lupa pada si Dia yg memberi dan kurniakan segala kebahagiaan dalam hidup yanie... ;)

Today I had a GREAT time with my Sayang... Ntah le.. baru 2 hari x jmp tapi rasa mcm dah DUA TAHUN x jmp! Really miz him sooooooo much!! We went shopping kat Alamanda 2day.. It was really peacefull.. No one else, juz the two of us... ;)

He bought for me some new clothes and accessories. All day hanya kami berdua shj... But he quickly drift away the moment i went into the Lingerie Shop!! Wakakakakakaka!!! He said, "potong stim siak!" Wakakakaka.... Oopsss.... Sori, syg.. Really need to buy sum new ones though. Hehehehehhe... We went to eat at Secret Recipe. I had the Carribbean Style Fish Fillet and Amir had the Spaghetti Bolognese. Both had Iced Choc with whipped cream. Nyum nyum... Apa lagik! Berlaku la sesi suap menyuap! hehehehehe... But the fish was AWESOME!! Asked for EXTRA gravy lagi tuhh.. Extremely delicious! Menikmati makanan sambil duduk di atas kerusi sofa yg ala2 selesa jgk la kann kat dlm kedai tuh.. REALLY enjoyed our time there.

After that, cont shopping! We went to buy some toiletries at Carrefour. Blh plak terserempak dgn kakak amir, Kak Leha. She was with her two younger daughters. Cute lookin girls! Hehe... After a short chat with 'em, we continue browsing through the supermarket. Once we're done, we grabbed Nasi Ayam from The Chicken Rice Shop for Ayah & my li'l sis.

Quite tiring 2day but I had some cute+fun+loveydovey time with my Sayang... Really LOVE U, Syg... Thanx for the happiness.. Thanx for everything.. U put a smile on my face 2day.. A really BIG smile.. ;)


LOTS OF LOVE... ~Aremeer Dan Yanie (A.D.Y)~

Dear frenz,

Life's been good. Lots of ups and downs. A li'l too hard for me to face but my dad said it's a good learning session for me. With the help of my loved ones, there's nothing that i can't face up. I admit that I was immature a couple of years ago, but I think many have notice the changes in me. Maybe it's because of my age kot. I'd rather stay at home and chill instead of hangin out wasting time & $.

In this article, I'll try not to criticise anyone. Keep my word k... ;)

I agreed with a phrase which said that our life is like a spinnig wheel. There are times we'll be on top, and there'll be some downs as well. I refused to say that I was on top for once but I admit that I'm now at the bottom of the wheel. Even so, it doesn't mean that i'll stay at the bottom forever. I know my time will come... With the help of your prays, InsyaAllah... ;)

It was hard, but now my life is becoming more and more happier & beautiful. My love life is improving. Alhamdulillah...

To all my frenz, i cherish every strength that u guys have provide for me to keep moving forward. I LOVE u guys & will be forever in my heart! ;)
For my haters, i apologize for my wrongs that bruises u. No means. Tapi selalu nye Yanie JARANG kacau org, org je yg selalu KACAU Yanie.. hmm..

US AGAINST THE WORLD - Christina Milian


If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you ,you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I’ll be fighting with you, you, you ,you, you
Because it’s us against the world, the world, the world
You know it’s us against the world The world, the world, ohh

Now if I’m lost at sea 7 days I’m not alone
If I’m holding you, you, you, you, you
And if it all end’s, everybody in the world is gone
I’ll be standing with you, baby

And if it’s the last breath I take
I’ll leave my kiss with you
If there’s a wall between us, baby
I know I’ll break through

No matter what anyone could say
This is the only place for me
And no one could ever take that away
Nothing could come between us

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you ,you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I’ll be fighting with you, you, you ,you, you
Because it’s us against the world

Nothing’s stronger now than you and I
Cuz your love is all I got
And this ain’t never gon’ stop
No, whoa
There’s no distance here when we’re apart
Come on in from the cold
Lay your head on my shoulder
Ride like a soldier
I’mma stay right here