It's Over

Wow... It's really over, huh?

Q: Am I making the right decision? Or a mistake?
A: Should be the "right decision". Yup, pretty sure on this one...

Q: Can I move on easily?
A: It won't be easy, but I shall try...

Q: Can I forgive?
A: I've forgiven him..

Q: But can I forget?
A: I can't seem to forget what happened in the past.. year 2007.. it keeps haunting me.

Q: Is that the cause I changed my mind?
A: Partly, YES.

Q: Is there a second chance?
A: I think I've given more than two chances.

Q: What did I expect from him?
A: Effort, result & security.

Q: I know he's working on that recently. But why I left him still?
A: Coz I want him to fulfill his vow to his family. I know he'll have more concentration without me in the picture.

Q: Am I sure that is the right thing to do?

A: I've tried approaching him in a soft manner previously. We've discussed about being secured from the very first year we were together, but I don't see any improvement, he took things lightly instead. So, I guess by taking this guerrilla action will work as it gave him a very deep impact, from what I can see now.

Q: Am I not afraid of losing him?
A: I was afraid at first, but I know I just have to do it. Gotta be strong then.

Q: Then how about his accusation about me having an affair?
A: Nonsense. No prove. And he reacted childishly towards this situation.

Q: How childish can
he be?
A: Create chaos at people's house at 5am?? Woke the whole family? Shouting and yelling in the neighborhood? Carried a weapon with the intention to threat? How can I not call that "childish"? An adult won't reacted as such.

Q: I didn't reacted that way when I found out about his affair with his PR, rite?
A: Nope. I didn't. I didn't even assault that lady nor create chaos at her house. Why should I? Shit wouldn't happen if he himself won't allow it to happen, rite? So, I put it just between me and him.

Q: Then what about the case of him been calling up my friends and questioned every single one of 'em?
A: I did not agree on that. Coz I don't do that in the first place! Why should I get other people involved in my personal matters? And what's with the "tabi'i" of spreading rumors about my misbehavior to the people around me? Aren't you find it STUPID for talking craps about your own fiancee?

Q: So, what's my plan now?
A: I can tell that he hated me by now. So, there's no point of holding this relationship any longer. I've let him go. Let him be. Gonna focus on my work, secure myself and my family.

Q: And he found someone to replace me already?
A: Oh, well.. I wouldn't really bother on that anymore. Coz I know him very well and I know that that is how he show his rebel towards me. I don't wanna know and I don't care. And for everyone to know, I DO NOT have any affair with any other guy as assumed by him and I DO NOT plan to have any at the moment. Not interested!

To be continue.........

It'll never be the same..


I Need Your Therapy

..:: Ayang ::..

You know, the best part of my days was the part when I get to see his face and he'll embrace me with full of love and care. He'll ask me how's my day, how's work and so on. Not even a day I missed out a story to fill him up. Each time he caressed me on my forehead, he calms me down. By doing that brings out the child in me, too. He said it was the cutest part that he likes to see and that's why he just LOOOOOVE doin that. Today I didn't get to see him after work. He said he'll be late, he got errands to run.

Hmmm.... Bored... Alone... Missing him...
That's exactly how I feel right now. How I wish he could just be with me all the time. Aite... I know... Kena tunggu sampai it's "official".. Haha!... Anyway, this song reminds me of US and it soothes me during my pressuring working hours.... ;)

THERAPY - India Arie

Oh, oh oh, oh oh
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, hey
Oh, oh oh
Yeah yeah, yeah

(I, I, I) I need your therapy
(I, I, I) I need you to come and lay hands on me
(I, I, I) I need your therapy (therapy, therapy)

He lays me on the couch and says
"How has your day been?
Tell me your problems
I'll help you solve them

Come on let's talk about it"
He sits next to me and smiles
Listens to all of my words
Relaxes all of my nerves

Like breathe in (breathe in)
Let it go
Take deep breaths, now
Real slow, calm down

Close my eyes (so slow)
Ease my mind (take control)
Follow my body please
Work your psychology

You've taken good care of me
Always been there for me
Boy I can't bear to leave
Cuz I need your therapy

You've given me everything
So much I ever could need
Without you I'm weak in the knees
I need your therapy

(I, I, I) I need your therapy
(I, I, I) I need you to come and lay hands on me
(I, I, I) I need your therapy (therapy, therapy)

He puts his hand on my lower back,
His face in my neck and,
Says something to make me laugh
Makes me forget I was mad

His touch feels so right
It's like he's reading my mind, yeah
I need him all the time

When it feels like I'm losing power
When I feel like a wilted flower
The way you touch me says I'm better for you
It heals me just to hear you say (I love you)




Sometimes, when you tried to do any tasks given at your best, people just come around smashing you like nobody's business. Wreck you up with unconditional words and unreasonable reasons.

Sometimes, when you think you could trust her/him, he/she was the one who actually stabbed you with the sharpest tool you would've ever imagine. With no sympathy, they just leave you bled out alone.

Sometimes, when you feel like crying over the shits that has happened, unfortunately you're not in the right place and at the wrong time. Nobody's there to soothes you down. And again, you're all alone to ease yourself down, trying hard not to shed a tear.

Sometimes, you'll feel like running... You wish you could run a thousand miles away from the mess, from those who seems to envy every single thing you have. Have a walk on a peaceful sunny beach... Take a ride on a quiet lake... [sigh]

Sometimes, you just don't understand why, even if you've tried to please everyone, people just seem too cruel to bring you down. To be honest, it hurts.

But at ALL TIMES, I have my beloved Ayah to guide me through. It was never embarrassing to talk just about anything to him, and he helped me out quite well through out my awful days. Plus, I'm lucky to have such a caring & loving fiancee by my side. Even if I've failed, he never fails to put me at ease. Say nice things to me, caress me in the most soothing way you would've ever imagine, stock me up with a bunch of chocolate just to see me laugh, drive me around the city, take me to my favourite place, get me my favourite DVD... Hehe..

They are the best I got....

Thanx, Ayah...... ;)

Thanx, Ayang.... ;)


My New Job - KRU Studios Sdn Bhd

After TWO years I took a break from bein' a PR, and now I'm BACK!! hehe.... New groove, new mentality, new vibe, new moves, new SPIRIT. At KRU Studios, I got a great Promo Team ever, they're fun, lovely, caring and even sometimes a good punching bags. Haha!!

Tomorrow will be approximately 1 month I'm here in KRU and hopefully I'll be getting my 1st salary by tomorrow as well. Ngeee..... The Bosses are awesome. They're very casual, understanding and approachable. Norman sort of became an idol to me, even with tons of tasks to do, he never fails to spend a li'l time to care for his staffs. Why am I amazed? Coz I never bumped into any Malay bosses who can fulfill that. That was sincere, aite.. Ini tidak ada kena mengena utk mengipas ke apa ke ok.

So far, the members of the recent Promo Team are Ayu (Head), Abun, Pooh, Khairul, Ena (intern) and Me. Everybody with their own unbelievably hilarious characters. Haha!... Having them around makes me feel excited to go to work every morning. Never fails to get a good laugh in the morning. I hope all of these stays as long as it can. ;)

..:: The Promo Team ::..
[Ayu, Abun, Ena, Yanie & Pooh]

Happy Birthday, Boss!
[15 June 2010]

Yusry Abdul Halim

and with the rest of them... ;)


The day was a Fairytale....

My Love, My Life, My Soul....


The Fight

It's hard for me to explain, to put it in words. It's hard for me to tell what's exactly on my mind. It's really hard for me to find words to convince you. It's even harder when I'm alone in this fight.

I don't want this to break. I don't want the love to go scattered. I don't want this separation to last. Coz it's tormenting us. I don't want people to laugh at us. I don't want people to look down on us. I don't want to see them clapping their hands with a smile on their faces. I refused to let them watch us breaking up.

But I can't win this battle alone all the time. I know sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. I need you, i need us. Help me stop the pain. Help me stop the sorrow. Help me stop the tears. Please.... Help me...


I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,My faith is shakin'

But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin'

And I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah


Pegi la "M"!!

Helo?? paham tak apa makna "gurau"??? hanya sebab gua majal lu kata lu gay kat FB, lu nak menggelabah sumpah gua 7 keturunan la konon? yg member2 lu pon ikot menggelabah cam HARAM... POSERs tau ak? tau tak gurau tu apa, beb? tau tak?? tak tau eh, duduk surau lama sket k.. nama je kenal gua lama, tapi satu habok pon lu tak gheti.... "abang" konon.... tapi kan, pernah ke lu anggap gua ni "adik" lu?? pernah??????????
Lu selalu sound gua kata gua ni sombong laa apa laa sbb tak call lu.. bila gua dah call lu, apa lu buat??? cuba citer sket!... lain kali, biar CANTEKK sket cakap sblm nak tudoh org sembarangan... cakap tak serupa bikin....

Gua dah MALASSSSSSS nak layan lu.... Pegi la "M"!....

And now, please FUCK OFF!!


..:: New Year ::..

Many surprises came up during this early year. All this while I only prayed for the best to come and I'm grateful for what He's given me so far. Too many ups and downs but we manage to stand tall. Many have asked me about marriage. With all your prayers, insyaAllah it'll happen soon... For the time being, I'll focus on my work & family.

Kalau nak bercerita, otak tgh bercelaru... Tak tau yg mana patut diceritakan. Macam2 hal jadi sepanjang 2 - 3 tahun ni. Harapkan hati & pegangan yang kuat, yanie masih lagi ceria & livin life as happy as always... Nope, i didn't backed nor turned down.... So, probably many has been asking where I've been as I've been quiet from the entertainment industry. Well guys, I'm taking a break from the PR thingy fo a while. Taking some fresh air... Right now, I'm in a production company, doin a li'l of screen-writing. The job's cool!.. very relaxed and not as hectic as the PR job. So far, we're bz working on a government project under Rais Yatim, a 10-eps docu... Hope we'll get it done successfully~... ;)

Hmmmm...... What else to update?? x ley pikir ar skrg.. There'll be more coming up k... catch ya later!... ;)